Ok, its time for another update i guess, it is that time of the month after all 

I have been on three straight weekends of Live Action Role Play, with my friend Royce's system, Pathfinder, another friend Pete's system Faded Glory, and another system run by a friend called Bob, called Bloodfest.

For one weekend, i was Playing Uushki Mag, a drugged out thief who is basically doing whatever he can to get out of his own mind, through any means necessary, and as a result has had an ear ripped off by crossbow, a broken finger, a near death experience at the hands of another player, and had his body pimped out by a "Strange" Elf, the least i can say is - Pathfinder can be an odd system to say the least!

The next weekend, i was monstering in Faded Glory involving switching between guards, rat kin, teenage stoner rat-kin ("Smoke the Mendak!") and being witness to gay Alex pole dancing, Soot (played by another friend Paul) Pole dancing, and my landlord Patch dressed as "Freeka Freeka!" a Male rat-kin transsexual who was extremely bad at being a transsexual, but was very very very eager.

We broke several players minds with what could be called an audible "Brain snap!" and several sights i have locked in an area of my mind never to be re-visited again.

And after that came Bloodfest, in Fort Widley down in Portsmouth, which was 36 hours of pure role play against a zombie horde, and i had a camera, the footage is amazing to say the least, and i am making copies to send off, and editing it myself into a short amature horror movie, and i can proudly say playing as a special forces operative was FUCKING AWESOME! i have had to much fun at Bloodfest!

Unfortunately, three weekends of LARP in a row has made it impossible to RP post or keep up with my other commitments, but things should get back on track soon.

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In another note, 40 year old mothers of two should stay the HELL away from my head, i know i have problems, but if every mother out there is thinking they are somehow going to completely heal me with a cup of tea and a chat, you are royally mistaken, i make mental mistakes, and have a mind which doesn't always follow the track it should, yet they all seem to think that they can suddenly heal me and that my parents divorce is always the head of the problem, but i have so many years of bullying and shit behind it, social issues they can't even wave a stick at, and then theres the fact i have had numerous occasions like this where i cannot with-hold my anger, which seems to make them think they have hit a nerve and they can heal it, when in actual fact, they are making things, much, much worse for me.

Heres a lesson to all of you amature psychiatrists who are mothers of two who think you can magically "heal" me like that, get the hell away from me you freaking whores, because one of these days i am going to snap beyond my limits to control myself, and i may end up hurting someone - so the lesson here to learn is quite simple, are you listening?

STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME.

Got it?

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I also keep running into another person, the one who's name begins with "J" and people are yet again insisting that i attempt to "smooth" things over there, and if you continue on that path, there will, and i state this very clearly so there is no confusion.

There will be blood, and it probably won't be mine.

Enough said.

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On another note, i recently picked up smoking again after stopping for quite a while, which is not a good sign for me.

Damn stress.
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And one last thing, one old friend of mine, turned out to be an asshole, if every other of my male school friends has turned out to be an arsehole, will i turn out to be one to? because we now have so many old friends who have been hurt and torn apart, how long will it be before i become one of them as well?

I hope i don't, but i just, i don't want to be an arsehole, but what if i end up turning into an arsehole as well, what else will i end up loosing?

That thought scares me, a lot.

Thats enough for this blog post, for now. More updates when i feel like it really, Mansfield Out.

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